Since it seems that I'm only talking to myself, I can get real Real here.
The post below this post titled "I Am Ashamed' refers to my shame & my brokedness, trying to pay my taxes. (Yes; Broke-edness, not Broken)
I sold my Best Friend,my Horse, and gave away his best friend, The Other Horse
on account of the fact that I needed money. Cash, to pay taxes. So I could KEEP
this place, even if it has no horses. (My Good Neighbor didn't want me to sell The Other Horse,
since she still technically Owned him.
So I gave that horse back.. the day I sold mine, 8 days ago. She's
subsequently managed to find a Home that would feed The Other Horse, and has given
him away. To a (hopefully) Really Good Home.
I think I Sold mine, to a Really Good Home (hopefully).
Whatever... it's a Done Deal. Leaving me horseless, and pretty lost. I miss my friends,
they were my Family.
I wish things were different, but accept the fact that this is Reality. I have most of the money I
need to keep this farm, and a few deals in the works to sell it once my tax bill is paid.
It just doesn't feel like Home, without my family.
I'm angry, and butt-hurt. I'm a little lost, a lot heartbroke, and I just 'Haz A Sad'